Thrisis......(2X + Y - 4 + 5Q = 5Z )haaaaaaa??????

She looked at me straight in the face "Do you really WANT this job?" "How dare she" i was thinking to myself, "Of course i NEED it"i heard myself replying. She raised her eyebrows  and i felt exposed because i realised that though i answered all the questions the way they were supposed to be answered and told them how i love to work with numbers it was all just a lie, and she knew it. At that moment i realised that as much as i thought i had gone in and out of my thrisis, i was not even that far from the beginning of it. I have not really asked myself the important questions and just seem to be going with the flow and doing what needs to be done. I go to work cause the bills gotta be paid but half the time I am walking around lost and counting down every minute.
I sometimes look at everyone around me and wonder if they are REALLY happy with their jobs or they are like me going with the motions.The bigger part of me wants to believe that I am, at the same time trying by all means to ignore that little inner voice that keeps asking "is this it?"




                                                   

Ok so enough with all this ranting and raving, what I know right now is that whatever this thrisis is all about, it's much bigger than I thought it was. hopefully I will get the answers from somewhere or someone someday but right now its all not adding up.
Though I am happy with my body, believe I am a super mom(YES I AM), am a good wife, sister, daughter,writer and Accountant something is not adding up in the equation of my life. There seems to be too many letters in the equation and once I figure out what X, Y, Z and Q are maybe I would have arrived and survived my Thrisis.

@makanakam