Have you ever been so sure about something that it will work out in your favour, like you almost have a grasp of it and then...............................................it all crushes in front of your eyes and you don’t get it.
Well I just had a similar experience but it’s not totally over because the final decision has not been made yet BUT it seems the closer the D-day is the less of a grip I feel I have.
I won’t lie I am a bit on a down low because I needed this boost with the downward spiral I have been experiencing and all these raging questions in my head.
What I am realising though is that I have lost control of my life, of where I will go when and how because I have put it in someone else’s hands. This is probably what is adding to my frustrations because my life is cruising by and with each passing day at this pace I am just waiting on someone else to pull whichever string they feel they want to and that is not what and how it’s supposed to be.
It’s not that I do not have other things that I absolutely love and have total control of but at this point the things I have control of have a less weighing to those that I don’t and only Ican change that, which I will eventually.
Are you in control? Why are you not in control? is it by choice or it’s just the circumstances? What is holding you back for taking control of your life?
@makanakam
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